bubby...

hi bubby,

i'm so sad today... i never thought i would be so sad this week but i am simply devastated.. its like your birthday all over again.. i kinda wish i had taken the week off but then i think at least i have a distraction from being sad at work...

today i went to the shop and i printed out some more of your photos.. i have put one in a frame and have brought it out into the lounge room.. i have put it so that you can face the xmas tree.. i thought about it for a while because i didn't want to upset anyone else in the family.. but then it occurred to me that if the are offended by your photo then they are quiet frankly not welcome in this house! i also got you a xmas hat.. i will put it on chop for you..

i wish so much i could see you in your pretty little dress that dad bought you... but it is not to be..

dads been talking about you a bit more lately.. i think he too is sad knowing what should have been..

i was around the shops and there's xmas things everywhere - but i just don't feel anything.. just blank.. it shouldn't be christmas if your not here...

i hope you are happy little cub.. i miss you terribly

xxx