Today is a sad day... the kind of day where you get slapped in the face by the world that is "baby loss"...
Today is Jamie's second birthday.. I'm pretty certain she's having a party.. I imagine there are angel cakes - the yummy meringue cupcake types.. I imagine she has her little friends, Dominic and Matilda by her side.. the saddest part is that she is not here on earth celebrating with her mum and dad.. Jamie's mum and I are friends through what you could call a mothers group.. an exclusive one in which mothers come when they have no living babies.. I often wonder how new mothers can just go to a group and become friends - just like that.. with only their children in common.. now days i understand.. Happy birthday sweet girl.. i miss you.. your parents miss you.. and everyone wishes you were here..
Today... my director (my boss' boss) became a grandfather for the first time.. all is well with mother and child.. but today makes me sad.. i remember going into his office to tell him I was pregnant.. he said thats wonderful and proceeded to tell me that his daughter was pregnant too and she was due 1 month after me.. so i suppose the fact that her baby was born alive and well today feels like a slap in the face..
further.. he came into our office a few weeks ago carrying on about what his daughter wanted to name the baby if it was a girl and how much he hated the name etc etc... turns out she wanted to name her baby matilda if it was a girl.. my response was "thats my daughter's name" to which his response was "oh sh*t - i should leave now"
well it is a girl.. i dont know what its name is.. i havent asked.. i hope she named her daughter matilda - i think its a beautiful name... by the same token it would feel like another slap in the face to know that her matilda is alive and mine isn't..
*sigh* i guess the down had to come to 2010 eventually!
OH man, that's rough. I heard of another baby named Elora and I wanted to vomit. That was MY baby's name :(
ReplyDeleteI think Matilda is a beautiful name. It's sad to hear of other babies being born healthy due around when ours were due. I was upset when an announcement was made at work that another work colleague had a baby a week after Bailey was due and I didn't even know he was expecting a baby. At that time no-one knew what he had, and someone yelled out "it's alive" - made me really angry. He had a boy.
ReplyDeleteIt would be nice to know if his grand-daughter's name is Matilda - like you said, it's a beautiful name.
xxx
Hi Lana,
ReplyDeleteI tried posting on your other blog to wish you all the best and more with creating your family, but the post thingy is cutting off the verification at the end so that I can't actually post.
Anyway, I really hope that you can fall pregnant quickly and have a live healthy baby this year.
Take care.
xxx
Hi Ladies,
ReplyDeletei am extremely happy to tell you that the boss' granddaughter is called Isobelle! i was so very happy to hear that - i think i would have been quiet sad to know if it was called matilda...
hope you are both keeping well
Lana
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