do you ever get the feeling that you want to go home.. and then you realise you are home..
like you want your life back and then you realise that this is your life...
thats me..
not a good way to start a weekend... but that is just when i am..
in a dark, sad, lonely, foreign place....
YES! I remember after Connor was stillborn, feeling like I was in some sort of dream. Aaron was deployed my whole pregnancy, I got the positive test three days after he left and he came home the day after I delivered. It was like Connor only existed to me, no one else felt him move, held him after he was born. It was like he was a figment of my imagination, like he was only real to me.
ReplyDeleteIt would be good to get our old lives back. Having to now deal with being in that dark place where other's think they can relate to, but can't even fathom what it really feels like. Realising this is our new lives, and we have to now continue on with it. It is sad and lonely, and I'm so sorry that we are all going through it. I really wish there was something I could say that could make you feel better, but somedays are like that, where it just hurts.
ReplyDeleteYes, all the time, every day. I wish it could be all fixed and we could go back to our old, happy lives. Thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your hurting heart. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers today. You are so generous and supportive in your comments on my blog. I'm adding you to my blogroll so I can keep in touch with you xxx
ReplyDeleteIt may be a dark place. But we are there too :) xxx
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