There is not a day that goes past where i dont think of my baby girl.. but lately as my current pregnancy progresses I have had to start believing that this is actually going to happen - i am actually going to bring a baby home.. i still have a constant fear that it wont be happening but i have to believe.. in doing so i have had to do things that i didnt get a chance to do for Matilda.. things like washing baby clothes, setting up a nursery, organising car seats and the like..
so yesterday i took some time out to spend focused soley on Matilda and found myself in tears.. on my bedside table i have a photo of matilda and her ashes as well as her birth certificate... its so hard to imagine that this is all i have of my precious daughter.. i wished so much that i could hold her again.. just for one moment.. to give her a kiss, tell her i love her, tell her i miss her and all those other things i will never get a chance to say or do for her..
i miss you baby bear.. xxx
Many (((((HUGS))))) and missing your little girl with you.
ReplyDeleteThis post made me cry. The second day Max was here I was lying in my hospital bed looking at my picture of Matilda we'd taken in with us. I felt further away from her than I ever had with Max's arrival and all I wanted to do was hold her again and I tell her I still love her and always will.
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Your post gave me goosebumps. You will always miss your gorgeous girl. Not a day goes by that I don't think of Bailey. It's heart breaking to be a mum that's lost a baby.
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